It was only once.

2009-10-30T00:32:00.002+08:00

I'm no longer using this blog
MOVED TO TUMBLR

2009-10-08T22:00:00.004+08:00

U BUSY FOR NOW

2009-10-05T23:18:00.009+08:00

Raya Outing with the same old people
ex serangoon secondary students =)

2009-10-05T23:13:00.002+08:00

Graduation Day!

1 October 2009

yeah, we had so much fun!

2009-10-01T00:20:00.002+08:00

What should I wear for Graduation Day tomorrow?
any suggestions?
How about wearing a blazer with a dress?
or with ruffled top with casual pants and blazer?
oh boooooy!

2009-10-01T00:15:00.000+08:00

Swept me away
But now I'm lost in the dark
Set me on fire
But now I'm left with a spark
Alone, you got beyond the haze
And I'm lost inside the maze
I guess I'm all alone in love

I look into your eyes
You turn the other way
And now I realize
It's all a game you play

I hold you in the night
And wake to find you gone
You're running out of sight
It's so hard holding on
All alone in love

You haunt me in my dreams
I'm calling out your name
I watch you fade away
I know your love is not the same
I've figured out your style
To quickly drift apart
You held me for a while
Planned it from the start
All alone in love

Sitting in the dark without you
How am I supposed to make it through the night?
Slowly fall apart without you
Cry away the hours 'til the morning light
I guess I'm all alone

2009-09-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

How can I love again when I can't stop loving the one that hurt me so much?

2009-09-26T01:41:00.002+08:00

i'll update soon okay?

2009-09-18T23:45:00.004+08:00

I can't wait for tomorrow's family gathering at Chai Chee
Gonna be lots of fun and laughter
ohh I really miss my cousins
It has been months since we last met
Majority are buzy with school and work
I hope tomorrow everybody will be there breaking fast together!
I will be so happy!

For your info, this is our every year routine
All of the family members will gather up the day before raya and we'll be sleeping over Aunt's house as she is the oldest among all
So the next morning we'll be having crying/hugging/tapping shoulder session whereby they
seek an apology among themselves but this is only for the aunties ok!
and yes, my mother will be the all time no. 1 emotinal-girl-next-door
hahahahaha!

&& there will be cooking of course!
Big pots and giant spatula!
we will do the rice dumblings in the morning
and the cooking in the early afternoon when everybody's already there
the guys will usually sit there, mixing the gravy, frying the chickens and do all the cooking with the help of my aunt

and the night of raya
we cousins usually do the ''last-minute searching for anything nice'' at Bazaar
the guys especially
they usually get their stuff at the very last minute and not forgetting Deng-Deng!
but this time, father and uncle will be following
cause both are drving so it is easier for us to get home in the morning
and not having a hard time finding a cab back home!

Oh my! I just can't wait!

I'm going to bed soon
I've been staying up late trying to complete my art preps
and the radio been such a pleasure for accompanying me
I will usually turn her on to Ria FM for entertainment and in the same time
to avoid myself from getting asleep!
and yeah, I got eyebags for raya? how's that? LOL!

okay ladies and gents!
I'm going to dreamland
will be waking up at 9a.m tomorrow!

Once again, wishing you
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!
Maaf Zahir Batin!

2009-09-15T19:34:00.008+08:00

I'll be not active here at the moment. Most probably after Friday? Currently, I'm fully occupied with assignments. I will be very busy these few days. Art preparation to de done for both O's and Prelim. Actual submittion date is by next week but then teacher wants us to submit it on Friday so that he can check through our preps.

Tomorrow, I'll be having Art Prelim Paper II and I've not done a single thang yet
Luckily we only need to do 5 pages! pheww! *shake heads
So today, I'll be completing them. Die Die must get it done! I'm quite exshauted actually.

These few days, I've been staying up late.

3 to 4 hours of sleep per day?
Burning the midnight oil katekan!

C'mon! NABILAH! don't be a lazy bambam!
After this coming friday you can sit back and relax!

so last sunday
went to aunt's crib at Chai Chee
kuih in the making la!
I can't fast on that day so I get to munch all that yummy cookies fresh from the oven!
tha taster for the day!
Hahahahaha! aku perangai babi!

okay la, I got to end this now!
wishing all muslims,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

*sape yang tak puase tak boleh raya ehhhh! opppps! *tutup mulot

Last week's pictures

Aliff advance birthday!

0815pm

2009-09-11T19:35:00.006+08:00

yesterday's outing was great
met up Dania at Compass Point
bought a large chocolate cake at Bengawan Solo Cake Shop
and off to town mitting up with Diana, Ashq, those-eng-speaking-boys.

had our dinner at Puncak
they had already reserve our seats
so no worries

after having our luscious meal,
did some window shopping and stuff
I was a little upset, I accidently broke my all-time favourite Guess perfume
I'm superduper clumsy yesterday
spilled my drink, tripping over one after another

as we were walking at the side walk, half way through, Dania blindfold Alif
we make him stand blindlessly in the middle of town
passerby was so curious of what's happening
worse, some even laughed at him

we settled down at Taka
he was still with the blindfold on
we light the candles
and again, let him sit alone with the cake infront of him
Rafi felt sorry for him so he told Alif to untie the blindfold
we sang him a birthday song
it was his first time celebrating his birthday
and yeah, he like it!

so after that
the guys head to Wheelock
wherelse we girls went to Starbucks to chill after a long walk
they joined us shorty
we crap about a lot of stuffs
boy girl relationship, sexs issues and much more
exchanging of opinions
and guess what? some even break down
ohh, chill up okay?
we did enjoy those talking/gossiping/laughing/criticizing sessions
we behaved like a bunch of Ah beng/Ah lien at the Coffeeshop!
should do it more often! Lmao

plans for today?
I don't want to say about it
I'm just pissed off
but its okay
I'm not feeling well
I got really bad sore throat, I barely can speak
runny nose and cough
mucus draining down the back of my throat!

I went to the poly clinic earlier on
I was so lost which room should I report to
cause its my first time actually LOL!

but still, I'm going out soon
I wanna find some huge dangling earings!

I will be posting up pictures soon okay

- nabilah

2009-09-09T19:35:00.005+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates
occupied with school stuff and my desktop seem to suck these few days
I can't even online in msn
It's troublesome for me to list what I did last week
futhermore, before this post, I was composing a post and suddenly the computer went blank
It's simply pathetic for me to type all over again
so just to summarise that I did enjoy myself for last week's outing with tha both D's; Dania & Diana
It was a last minute plan
we met after breaking fast and off we went to bazaar
saw a couple of ex schoolmates and I hugged them to show the kind of message that I missed them a lot!
we also bumped into tha F'S; Fyda, Farah, Faris and i-don't-know-who so they decided to tagged along
Fyda was not in a good mood so she went off earlier
cheer up okay darling! I'm always here for you baby!

as we were squeezing through a crowd,
Dania pulled my hand
to my suprise, I saw tha ex boyfriend!
I was astounded how she managed to recognise him
he still looks the same. ohh, i miss him!
okay eyla, enough! cukop!

currently, im doing nothing
just munching my DIY half burned popcorn and scooping strawberry yoghurt
pretty good combination huh! hahaha
so just chillax, watching reality shows
it's kinda sucky you know
watching with your eyes half closed and mouth partially open!
boredom!
I just can't wait for America's Next Top Model Cycle 12
new faces new attitude and not forgetting, fierce! hahaha

I'm going to catch Singapore Idol soon since I missed the previous episode
and whatups with Faizal Isa?
I heard my girlfriends were talking about this
so I gotta check it out!
hahahaha!

tomorrow, I'll be having art followed by maths lesson
then in the afternoon, going out to celebrate Alif's birthday with schoolmates
not yet well plan. no rough idea where are we heading to
gonna be a tiring yet enjoyable outing!

okay enough for today
my fingers need to rest
for your info,it's my 3rd time re-writing this
and i want this to end now! before something happens
I can't save nor copy

evening to all!
pheew, at last.
successfully completed!

watch this!
they look so cute!

bored

2009-09-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

I love you girls

2009-09-01T15:23:00.000+08:00

muscle cramps
body aching
its been months since i last went jogging
fiza planned to hit the gym but it was already nine
so we just jog at the open field opposite sengkang police station
put our bags at mr postman's house and off we go
i was about to faint when i saw how big the field was
we jogged for 2 rounds and 1 brisk walk
(cannot tahan aready lehhh)
i kept complaining but still she encourage me to run
and i think this is the longest i jogged without stopping
but 2nd round,i stopped 2-3 times
hahahhaha!

later going out with my ex colleagues
its been so long since we last met up
we'll be breaking fast together
so yeah. i got to wash up now

School re-opens tomorrow!
get back to work!

2009-08-31T16:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a blast eventhough i didn't get to eat arnold's(shake head)
it was so crowded; customers queuing outside
i enjoyed myself with the company of mr postman and friends
so mr postman and i went to Mac donald's instead
then off to grandlink
it was a last minute plan with his friends
so yeah, 2 hours of karaoke was sufficient
baby girl covering both her ears due to the loudspeakers
ain't that cute?
she's so adorable when she shake her booty!

i thought the day would turned out to be dull and boring
because i don't get to eat what i craved for
but its okay! there's always next time
after that, the guys wanted to drop at bazaar to have sahur
i called mom whether she wants anything
i bought 4 honey chicken and i get 2 free
but fiza bought 4 and get 3 free!
(tak cukup hot nak seduce penjual ayam tu! hahahha)

so after having our meal
mr postman's friend sent us home
its been a long time since i went out till morning
thanks mummy!
and i'm looking forward for wednesday's and saturday's
gonna have a great time!

fyi, daddy is painting my room
french blue
i'm bored with purple walls
wherelse the hall was painted warm colours

what's for break fast today?

2009-08-30T16:22:00.001+08:00

yessar! sume tk jadi!best ape!
sesungguhnya aku berpuasa.....

2009-08-30T15:10:00.002+08:00

I'm sitting alone in my chair, looking out the window.
been hibernating at home
i want to go out today? please?
restless
i spent my saturday night at home watching tv!
pathetic right?
and the menu for break fast kept repeating
roti john, epok-epok, curry
roti john, epok-epok, curry
i want to break fast somewhere but not at home? please?
(dari 1st day aku buke dekat rumah! argh!)
i don't want to go bazaar
its raining
and and there's puddles everywhere
i don't want to get my feet wet

so how? supposedly today, dania plan to break fast at arnold's with fyda
but 'tha sexy bikini bitch' didn't say a word
so i don't know whether our plan is still on or not?
oh please oh please!

im tired and bored staying at home completing my art coursework
guess what? prelim art papers have been issued a few days back
wooo. i got a lot to work on bebeh!

okay bye.
update you soon bloggie!

When you left, I stopped smiling

2009-08-25T22:02:00.005+08:00

I'm so relieved.
English oral is over and yeah it's manageable.
It's about health care issues.
I was the third last to be examined.
Legs shaking, cold feeling.
Nervous Breakdown? hahaha, that's a mental disorder! dumbshit!
so yeah, i did my best.

Fyi, i will be seeing the eye doctor after O's or after Hari Raya
that was what father told me but i think its too long to wait
it seems to be getting much more bigger(i guess so)
i just can't stand it lahh
and it makes me keep touching it

currently, watching tv
bored, spiritless, sleepy, flagging
waiting for MR POSTMAN to reach home
opppssssss

relationships, 1104pm

2009-08-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something: they're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take.

2009-08-23T17:41:00.000+08:00

I wanna be a girl he gives his hoodie to wear and cuddles up next to when its cold, he'll be the one who comes up behind me wraps his arms around my waist, catches me off guard and whispers you look beautiful

a little update

2009-08-21T13:57:00.015+08:00

little update from the last few days
as usual busy with school
prelim is just around the corner which take place in early september wherelse O's will be in exactly 2 months time
I've already received results for mother tongue O's and I'm not satisfied with it, such a disapointment
most probably I will be re-taking it again in November
I should put in more effort this time! hahaha
I will be having English Oral this wednesday
wish me luck!
as you can see, im all occupied.
so ya, I got to hang on baby.
just a few months to go till finishing line.

currently, enjoying the cold weather,watching tv
shok banget!

check this out!
last week outing with schoolmates
before that lower down the volume
you wouldnt want to get shocked by our super magnificent voice!
not singing but shouting
HAHAHAHAHA!

0257am

2009-08-15T01:58:00.004+08:00

didnt went to school yesterday
i asked my mother to accompany me to the clinic to see the doctor due to my upper eyelid
a few months back, i noticed that theres a bump on my left eyelid
just a tiny one but not yet obvious
i thought that it will dissapear by itself in a few weeks time
but then the hump was getting bigger
it is so obvious now but not that bad lahh

so i decided to see the doctor
who knows if it might get even bigger if i kept ignoring this
the doctor told me that it is a cyst that cause a bump on my eyelid
it is caused by inflammation of a gland on of the lid
it may be soft or a fluid-filled or firmer
i know this sounds gross
and he told me to seek help from a eye doctor to remove the cyst on my upper eyelid
i need to undergo a minor cut to remove it

worse, girlfriend told me that her mother once experienced this before and the doctor gave her an eye patch!
and and i don't want that! no way!
so i thought of going to the eye clinic next week maybe?
actually thought of going yesterday but then i just remembered that im going out today!
and no way, im going walking around with that eye patch!

i dont know whats wrong with me
ive been tidying up my room in the afternoon till 1plus in the morning
and it was just a small portion of my room
plus, i bathed 4 times
and and im so hyper disturbing people
and somehow, somebody out there is annoyed by me
spongebob boxer uh eh? hahahha

plan for today
going out with schoolmates to grandlink!
sape cakap mate ade cyst tk boleh keluar!
lmao!

2009-08-12T19:28:00.001+08:00

as you can see, its been a while since i last updated my blog
im attentively engaged in work
homeworks and prep works need to be completed
3 weeks left for submission
goshhh...

2009-08-08T22:09:00.001+08:00

20cm high heels? WTH!

2009-08-06T22:08:00.002+08:00

such a long and fatigued day
reached home around 6 plus
maths maths and more maths assignments
maths homework for the upcoming short break

and this was what happened today
to make maths extended lesson absorbing rather than us dozing off
watch this

title: Mr Tan the curly maths teacher.
featuring Dania aka the student

2009-08-06T21:32:00.001+08:00

Goodbyes are not forever.

Goodbyes are not the end.

They simply mean I’ll miss you.

Until we meet again

catch ups

2009-08-02T19:55:00.008+08:00

FRIDAY

went to mit up dania, tha bitch. just slacking around and talking crap. talking about hair issues, i wanna get back my extensions! uhhhhrggghh. and i want HL MILK!

MY PRETTY FACE and MY OHNOT BITCH

Satisfying SATURDAY!

went to grandlink for karaoke then off to cityhall for fireworks absolute magnificent! i sooo want to catch it again next week then to vivo, met up shak. hell yeah, i miss her butt and laughter
did enjoy myself! i'm gonna get myself CK heels i saw at Marina!

woohoo! ohya, i need new sandals! dah pecah oooo!

2009-07-28T21:31:00.001+08:00

SO RANDOOOMMM convo.

father: kau boleh masok poly tk? kalau kau dapat masok, aku kasi kau ape kau nak..
i just remain silent, staring on my desktop. motionless.

THEN...

mom:ilaaa, nanti gaji nak order pizza?
i was murmuring to myself
''ape kene ngan deni''
me:tknk uh! jelak je!
mom: okay tkpe, aku order kau jangan makan. agaknye kau ngan kawan-kawan kau da makan pizza, tu sebab tkkn kn???
me: ape jee.. ila da la tkde duit!
daddy: ala, arnold kan ade. kn baru bukak dkt hougang green?
mom: tknk la, aku tk rase nk makan ayam. mcm kepunan nak makan pizza
(mcm nk ckp aje, ''ila ade adek baru ke? lol!''

then she called my aunty
she start with the convo '' hello singapore!!''
hahhahaha
i don't know whats wrong with her today
so hyper

i don't know if im perfectly competent for poly courses
i don't want to dissapoint them lahhh
i should work hard enough to achieve what i desire for
i want them to be exultant and highly pleased with my results
stress stress

2009-07-28T21:14:00.002+08:00

I self destruct every relationship so that i don't get hurt...
but in truth i just hurt myself worse in the long run..

catch ups , 1927

2009-07-26T19:04:00.007+08:00

hello im back
im actively and attentively engaged in work
so yeah, didnt have the time to update my blog

last week, racial harmony was great
i will upload the pictures soon

about the heels
the supplier last minute told me that it was out of stock
i was fucking pissed off
i really want that heels!
can just dream on la eh

so last friday
went out with a friend
catch a movie, chilling and stuff
yeah, did enjoy myself
cheers for the treat!
can i go to Marble Slab Creamery again?
pls? hahahaha
so heaven!

wherelse, on saturday
tag along with mum and aunties to causeway
sale sale sale! absolute sale!
wooohoo! leh jadi giler!
i was searching for heels but none attracted me
i still want that heels lahh
uhhhhhh, can someone get it for me?

fyi, my bro told me
nenek jual keropok da travel g hougang
alert! alert!
must be extra careful! Fiqah! jage! siap telekong!

currently, watching liverpool vs singapore
gogogo! i support both! lol
okay done updating
nothing much la

note to girlfriend

2009-07-20T21:10:00.008+08:00

To my dearest sweetheart, Dania Darwisyah.

here it goes...

Forget the times he walked by, forget the times he made you cry, forget the times he spoke your name, remember your feelings aren’t the same, forget the times he held your hand, forget the sweet things if you can, forget those times and don’t pretend, remember now he’s only a friend.

you've made the right decision baby. its useless to continue. you're just wasting your time and effort wherelse he himself didn't appreciate what you have done for him, not even a 'thank you'.
i know its hard for you but be strong okay syg! we're here for you no matter what, right fiqah?
if he was to really love and care for you, he would have done something and surely this will not going to happen. cheer up sweetheart. love you.

-eyla

2009-07-20T19:38:00.003+08:00

i can't wait upon collecting my heels i've ordered yesterday

i've already settled the payment

wait till the supplier mail or beep me

awwwww, i can't wait! hahahhahaha

maybe 1 or 2 weeks time? or earlier? or later?

i don't know

so tomorrow, we will be celebrating Racial Harmony Day/Be Yourself Day

we've planned to be in our traditional costumes rather thn home clothes

its too boring and no fun at all

my two bitches will be wearing sari wherelse the other wearing punjabi

ohhh ah ah eh, you both are indian! so.... i understand

hahahhaa. no offence. just kidding!

me? im still thinking what to wear

you'll get the answer by tomorrow okay lol!

i will be posting pictures

fiqah, craving for granola bars eh sayang?

nanti i sampai rumah you pagi2, i beli kan okay!

hahahahha.

tomorrow morning, im mitting fiqah at her crib

got lots and lots to do!

ohya, nightclass da start!

wooohhooo!

low self esteem

2009-07-18T23:55:00.003+08:00

Everytime before i leave my house, I feel satisfied with the way i look.However, once I step out of my house and see all these other confident girls, I start to doubt myself.I'll feel uncomfortable.Mybe I look just fine but to me I just feel like I can't match up. Another thing would be around groups of people. I get very awkward and stop being myself. It has always been like this since young. They are many different cases of my issues acting up.Its really hard to describe.Especially mitting new people.I'll give thousands of excuses.I am not confidence in myself.Somethings lacking and was taken aback. I hope to stop feeling this way and just be happy with who I am. But its hard.

''Don't expect much and you won't be dissapointed''

2009-07-16T23:19:00.003+08:00

i want this!!!

2009-07-15T20:54:00.003+08:00

stop hiding
stop acting
stop all the drama mister
blocking me doesn't work
it's silly to go on pretending
try harder darling *winks

2009-07-14T21:44:00.002+08:00

looking forward for P.E lesson tomorrow
i want to play soccer!
hahahahhahaha!
c'mon geng! get ready!
hahhahahahhha!
btw, MT oral was good, brilliant, perfect!
everything good la today
happy goooooobeerrrr

school

2009-07-13T21:19:00.009+08:00

•shooting stapler bullets to fiqah
•flying paper aeroplanes
•aiming/shooting bits of small broken erasers to fiqah
•laughing my ass out
•making stupid ugly faces to fiqah

yup, thats how childish i am today
i don't know
i'm so hyper eventhough i'm fasting
ohya, i reached school very very early today winks*

FYI, social studies mock test was tough
i just toodle whatever shit i know
just to fill up the blank piece of foolscap paper HAHAHAH

tomorrow gonna be a very hectic and exhausting day for me
•O level MT oral
•english mock test
•extended SRP for MATHS till 6pm

wish me luck for oral huh
goodnight fellow readers

2009-07-12T15:32:00.001+08:00

dump your friend
you're using her

oh so random

2009-07-11T21:44:00.004+08:00

out to geylang with my parents and cousins

just looking around for fabrics and stuff

saw the two boys from sleek (oh so random)

not excited at all

cause i don't hear their songs

so i don't know lah haha

went to meet fida later

accompany her for dinner

its been quite sometime since we last met

i miss her so much

yeah, lots and lots to talk about

thats all for today, nothing much happen

ohya, in that picture we looked like siblings right?

and we were like wearing the same thing?

purple and pink?

what a coincidence! hahaha

2342

2009-07-10T21:34:00.006+08:00

Hopeless

I'm sitting here all by myself,

Realizing the things I did wrong,

I was used to have you sit next to me,

But the pain of loneliness consumed me,

Then I knew I'm better off alone

I hate it when I see you next to her

I hate it when you laugh at her jokes cause she completes you

But before I walk away I was wishing you would stay

But now I know I'm some hopeless girl

In a lonely world

I used to believe in hopeful songs

But now it doesn't matter

What did I say or do wrong?

To deserve this pain

It's killing me, but you'll never see

Smitten all over her pretty face

You'll never know how much tears I cried

When I know it's time to say goodbye to my hopes with you

But I should just grow up and try to resist you

Cause someday I'd love to see you next to her

Someday I'd smile when you laugh at her jokes

Someday I'd chuckle when you show me the ring you bought for her

And I'll clap my hands when Jo says, "You may now kiss the bride"

Your lips meet, and my heart won't tear apart

Cause you're happy and she's happy

That's where I start

school was a blast

2009-07-08T17:41:00.011+08:00

i lovee school today

we played soccer for P.E lesson

wohhhoooooo

i really miss playing soccer

the last time was when i'm in Sec 2

where i was in soccer girls team

really miss those days

training was like hell

but we did enjoy it though

so yeah, we won 4-1

top scorer for the day, dania!

hahahhaha

unexpected! LOL

shouting like mad

pulling and pushing each other
get dirty and doing our hiphop pose after scoring

hahahahhaahahhaha

i hate people who are afraid of ballsss

girlfriends (cover mouth)

ohya, here's last week pictures

Hadi Steven David Fenton & Ashika Fenton

we were very close once

cute huh

shida & juriah (cousins)

the bride and groom

father's side

2009-07-07T18:46:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to vivo city
watched ice age 3
it was a great movie
you guys should watch it
it tickles me alot
and i was like laughing out loud

before that had dinner at KFC
entered the cinema hall at 9.45
yeah, i did enjoy myself
the movie ended quite late
i quickly rushed to the mrt station to catch up the last train
pheww..
i enjoyed my day out with my invisible friend
i should do more of this
hahahaha

♥ ;2342

2009-07-05T23:22:00.009+08:00

I only want your happiness
But I cannot be yours
If I was in love with you I would know how I feel, I don't.

wedddd , 2254

2009-07-05T22:11:00.008+08:00

just came back from cousin's wedding
it was remarkable
i loves the decorations and stuff
i thought it would turn out to be so dull and tiresome
i was like coming up and down of the dais
kinda embarrassing but who cares

i've been munching extra dark chocolate
and tidbits from Nottingham
thanks for the souvenirs, cousin
i just get to know that she was taking her masters
and it does shocked me alot
wish you all the best for both your studies and marriage
guess what, i get to bring back roses! ohh, i loooovee it!

i'll try to upload more pictures once i receive it from my cousin
and, i got chocolates for girlfriends
ya, i know i know, i've been sumbating korg ngn chocolate
btol tk? kalau tknk, kasi aku balek. hahahahaha

okay done updating
tomorrow im going out
wondering by myself, doing my schoolwork
i think im heading to Gloria Jeans
craving for latte
oh yummy!

Goodnight!

watch this!

2009-07-04T22:53:00.002+08:00

Parking Expert

2252pm

2009-07-03T22:48:00.006+08:00

nothing much to blog today
just woke up
i slept for so long hours
and tonight, surely i cannot get to sleep

few days back
went to watch transformers
the movie was awesome
but i dont really like the ending part
overall, yeah, it was superb

tomorrow i got my cousin's wedding dinner to attend
and i don't feel like going
cause we will be going again on sunday at Lagun Sari
futhermore, i'm not close to my father's side
so ya, i don't really bother

i feel like having Gloria Jean's Coffee tomorrow
i don't know, just craving for one and also subway
shhhesh, im bored right now
i got nothing to do

how i wish i could be with you
attached to me all the time
i miss those touch
i miss those words
i miss everything about you

how i wish you are still mine
right now
but it's impossible
you're someones
i can only imagine
but i still keep you in my wallet
i miss you so much

-nov 2007

tranny is Megan?

2009-07-01T17:48:00.004+08:00

Is Megan Fox a MAN?

Megan Fox is very pretty, hot and gorgeos, isn’t she? She is even named the no.1 sexiest woman for FHM 2008.

But too bad, She’s a HE. I repeat. Megan Fox is a HE.

I found out from Weekly World News . The message reads below :”
LOS ANGELES, CA – The internet has been abuzz since this Sunday’s Golden Globes ceremony, where Megan Fox jokingly remarked that she looked like a man.
When interviewed on the red carpet, she said “I look like Alan Alda in drag. I’m a tranny. I’m a man.”

At the time, reporters passed it off as a jovial attempt to cover for her nerves.
However, today she has cleared the air and officially reported: she’s really a man.

Megan Fox was born Mitchell Reed Fox in Rockwood, Tennessee. From an early age, Mitchell showed an interest in both performing and women’s clothing.
When having a preacher lay hands on him did not ‘cure’ him of these interests, his parents simply put him on the pageant circuit.
By the age of 13, Mitchell had already started a career as a female child performer called ‘Megan Fox’. Making her debut on an Olsen Twins straight-to-video release, the twins have kept his secret all this time.

As a sweet 16 present, Fox’s parents offered him sexual reassignment surgery, which, given their child’s career, they’d hoped to write off as a business expense.
Unfortunately laws prohibit such surgery to be done to minors.
Since then Megan has been working non-stop, and been included on many Hottest Women lists in publications around the world.
Megan, as she goes by now exclusively, also noted this Sunday how much she wants Salma Hayek’s figure.
She has even scheduled surgery later this month to get it.
After the two met in New York this week, Hayek offered to have a cast made of her bust so doctors can match them exactly on Megan Fox’s chest.
The internet is already speculating whether this news will be worked into the plot of the upcoming Transformers sequel. “

It’s such a disastrous story for the guys. Seriously, you remember this scene at Transformers? I rememberred it well. The guys’ reaction are all with the BIG “WAH” on their face and almost drooling saliva.

Think again, right now that you know she’s a HE, would you still be so interested? Err… Wait a sec, did you went and google her photos and save it to your machine and set as wallpaper after you watch Transformers?!

Are you deleting it now already?

Updates : After some research on the.internet, it seems like Weekly World News is the source of the story mentioned above. The MTV and Spreadit.org states what she mentioned below. She said that because she was nervous about her appearance.

Friday, 260609, pictures.

2009-06-30T23:46:00.016+08:00

Out to pennisula

waiting for that starkarat boy, took some pictures.

Off to Marina Sq to have dinner and then to Haji Lane

Sheesha with girl/boyfriends

yeah, we did enjoy ourselves
laughters, lame/stupid jokes
perangai swine,retard!

Late night, to Punggol Marina Country Club

; Bar by the dockside

Fiqah and Zoe went home.
Night of Chivas Regal/Drunk.

hahahha, thanks for offering.

should do more of this after exams
Karaoke wise? wawan naek shok! hahaha

H1N1, dania read this. FYTK!

2009-06-30T23:39:00.002+08:00

Breaking News

SINGAPORE: Singapore has confirmed 72 new H1N1 flu cases,
bringing the tally to 701 so far.

The Health Ministry says most cases are mild and to date,
281 patients have fully recovered and the rest are recuperating.

Singaporeans should carry on with their usual activities whilst
observing good personal hygiene at all times. If unwell, they should see a doctor,
stay away from work, school or crowded places, and rest at home.

Investigations are on-going for the 72 new cases.
Of the 64 cases investigated on Tuesday, there were 42 local cases and 22 imported ones.

Of the latest cases investigated, the largest number of new cases were linked to the Republic Polytechnic, bringing the total number of cases there to 77.

Over 1,900 second- and third-year students have signed an online petition calling on the polytechnic to suspend classes, not just for first-year students but for them as well.

The polytechnic said it understands the students' concerns and has also received feedback from them through internal channels although it has not received any petition formally.

The school added that it is monitoring the situation closely and is prepared to take additional measures if required to safeguard the well-being of staff and students.

Another three new H1N1 cases were found linked to an orientation camp at the National University of Singapore, bringing the number of cases in that cluster to seven.

Clementi Camp had two new cases raising the total there to 55, while there was one new case each from the Raffles Institution Boarding School, Butter Factory, Maju Camp and Pulau Tekong Camp clusters.

2009-06-29T18:28:00.000+08:00

i'll update my blog soon
i cant upload pictures
somethings wrong

oh-so random post

2009-06-26T11:04:00.014+08:00

literature paper was quite tough
i barely understand the poetry given, pfft.
currently, just doing nothing
drinking coffee and watch martha

okay, gonna take a short nap
exshausted
i can't sleep properly yesterday
later, going out with girl/boyfriends
I need a break

Breaking News

•Micheal Jackson, 50, died on thursday?
died at UCLA Medical Center in Los Angeles
after suffering a cardiac arrest

•SINGAPORE: The H1N1 virus continues its spread in Singapore.
The Health Ministry confirmed 95 new cases on Thursday, raising the total infected to 315. About half of the new cases have been investigated and they comprise 25 local infections and 22 imported ones. Of the 25 new local infections, 10 were Butter Factory nightspot patrons and staff, four were from the Maju Camp cluster and two caught the virus from close contact with imported cases. Nine were linked to a new Republic Polytechnic cluster, which had three previous cases. The remaining 48 new cases are still being investigated. Meanwhile, a trainee working in MediaCorp who contracted the H1N1 virus has been cleared and discharged from hospital.

From now, there will be a shift from alert level of Yellow Containment to Yellow Mitigation. The World Health Organization's (WHO) pandemic alert level is at the maximum level of six. The A(H1N1) virus, which was first detected in Mexico in April, has infected more than 55,000 people around the world in 109 countries and territories, causing 238 deaths.

Confirmed cases : 62 (as at 24 june)

reported by
Nabilaland

psst! can i be a reporter?

someone out there

2009-06-24T22:49:00.009+08:00

How do I tell you I'm sorry

With a gesture, a look, a touch?

How is it I never realized

I hurt you so very much

Im sorry for what i've did

I didn't meant to hurt you

You're such a nice person

So perfect

I wish I could keep

But i think this is not right for me

I don't want you to get hurt later

I hope you understand

I want to be by myself

I love my life now

friends?

clarke Q with girlfriends,2306

2009-06-24T17:10:00.011+08:00

2009-06-23T01:04:00.004+08:00

last thursday before i went for holiday

fiq and myself decided to mit fyda

missing her so much

and not forgetting her new born baby

so adorable! Nur Athirah Qistina

back to kampung, Malacca, 18-210609

2009-06-21T20:08:00.016+08:00

hellooo im back
the trip was little bit boring
cause my cousin didnt tag along due to exams
i get to know about it last minute. pfft.
so ya, didnt have much fun there
i didnt get enough sleep
i cannot sleep properly
mosquito bites
flying beetles
just name it!
they were everywhere flying above ur head
paranoid as usual
kept complaning
and ya, i wish i could go home

i eat alot but still cannot poo poo
haiyo, stress la
just wanna say that i miss my friends thats all
here's some pictures

reach there, do some clearing up in the house so i wore this to avoid from snezing! HAHAHA

Mummy

Burning rubbish and stuff

penghulu's house

going to penghulu's fish pond

Cracks

tons and tons of durians

Durian tree

daddy, clearing up

Chopping the lalangss

ayam berkokok

0144 and and im bored

2009-06-18T01:32:00.006+08:00

okay, i got nothing to blog today

and and im bored to death

mummy is currently using the phone

hours and hours chatting with her long lost friend

uhhh, can i use the phone pls?

currently,

drinking coffee as usual

tv watching

okay la, just wanna say that i miss girlfriends

miss gossiping with you b-a-b-is

hahahahah

i see you tomorrow fiqah

going to twinny's crib

can't wait

miss her alot

okay goodnight readers

gossip for the day reporting at 0121am

2009-06-17T01:19:00.003+08:00

im on msn
my father was watching football
and a few minutes later......

i heard someone snoring
i turned behind
YES! he was sleeping
now, tv watching father
not father watching tv
i dont bother to wake him up
maybe later when im going to bed?

ohya, he's still snoring.
shhhhh, i should type slowly
okay done gossiping

Goodnight

I miss you
Have a good rest

quote for the day

2009-06-16T22:45:00.002+08:00

“Being brilliant is no great feat if you respect nothing.”

pig disease alert!

2009-06-16T20:10:00.006+08:00

swine flu- increasing up to 47 cases in Singapore
alert- yellow
http://www.swineflu.sg/

2009-06-15T23:55:00.002+08:00

exshauted
out to National Library
talked about literature and bla bla bla
ohya, i love your secret place you brought me just now
so beautiful! perfect view! walla!

after that, walked to singapore river
just chilling
talked about all this fitness stuff
and this issue about dieting
hahahhahahaha
thanks for the advice! LOL

ohya, can't forget the hand gestures thingy
like makcik quaters! and you looked so gay
so yeah, did enjoy myself
ohya, my legs starting to get cramps due to long walk just now
Zoe, ur dead dead dead!
and about the gym thingy
i think by tomorrow my leg will be getting worsen

plus, i cant see properly
my right eyes blurred
i think because of the contact lens
and i think that those lenses were already expired
teehee

okay done!
goodnight!

friends

2009-06-14T19:32:00.004+08:00

ohh, i just miss my b-a-b-is

be back soon okay

A memory lasts forever.

Never does it die.

True friends stay together.

And never say goodbye.

video

2009-06-13T20:24:00.004+08:00

watch this! hahahaha

2009-06-13T02:42:00.004+08:00

today, out with wawan and his friends
yeah, it was fun
went for sheesha, it was my treat
sekali sekale hahahaha
yeah, had a great time
friendly people plus lame & funny LOL
hit to boat quay after that
we were sweating like hell
long walks, thirsty
i was wearing my bomber jacket
it was superb hot
chill for just sometime
and took the last train home

goodbye gf
you girls take care!

should watch this very funny! i was laughing like hell!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ouOzR8lskc0

0044am, lies

2009-06-12T00:27:00.001+08:00

I don't know why you're leaving Me
But I know you must have your reasons

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
But now that I find
That you've changed your mind
I'm lost for words
And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go

All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right
But if you turn your back on me now
When I need you most
But you chose to let me down
Won't you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down...

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I wanted in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in

071108-070609 i miss you, Ryan

girlfriends

2009-06-11T17:22:00.000+08:00

one more day and i can say goodbye to gfs
surely gonna miss them
both of them are leaving me behind, alone
%$&*(*! la korang
both will be leaving sg tomorrow
haiya, i got nobody to chat tu la gini
tkpe la, biar la
enjoy la korang eh
aku dok rumah diam-diam je okay tgu krg
tkcr b-a-b-is!
make sure you all buy me something!

this is for dania,
dnt be upset okay
just forget about it
its useless to cry over a man that doesn't care for you
you're just wasting your bloody time
and now, u're with someone you love
do treasure it okay gf!
cheer up!
and not forgetting fiqah,
hmm, i guess you know what im thinking off
Don't find love, let love find you.
hahahaha
okay la, i love you both!
take care okay!

i just received a very very good news from a friend
i cant tell what is it about
just wanna tell you that im very happy
hope that nothing bad will happen
i'll pray for you, fida.

currently, im suffering from stomach cramp

waiting for mummy to reach home

she decided to give us a treat

i ordered prata. im craving for prata. the curry.

*drooling

so i guess after that my stomach will be much more better

ohya, i also want yoghurt

fiq! kau kene try. best punyer! LOL!

love, eyla.

2009-06-09T16:42:00.000+08:00

thanks guys for cheering me up

including those on cyber!

love you guys

so, i get to know that he had other girl

isnt it cool or what

he's very good at playing hide and seek huh

wish you best of luck

and sorry for putting all the blame to you

i didnt believe you in the first place

i even stop contacting you

hating you, cursing you

im really sorry

i trust the wrong person

im so stupid upon trusting that jerk instead

today, i was so hyper.

i slept around 3am plus yesterday

and im looking forward going to school

cause i miss talking to gfs

i am not sleepy at all

but then, when i reached school

they were not there

i called fiq,

'' fiq! kau kat mane?''

''aku kat rumah la, aku malas nk dtg siang2, nanti break time aku dtg''

wth,i was alone sia

another one, gone case.

i dont know where.

break time,

they all like babi

reach school buy food

lesson dnt want to come. haiyoo!

lesson was plain boring just now

physics followed by maths and then art

doing our prep work

so boring

here are some pichas taken from my prep work

nothing much happened today

2009-06-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

so i think between me and him is already over

since he didnt reply my msg

call? buzy as always.

i type fucking long and he dont have the intiative to reply

?>@$%^&%&*%^$(&$W!!!!

so it means that he dont care about our relationship, right?

ohya, it was our 7th month together and this was what i get

so sad sia....

i can forget about watching transformers II with him

he was the one who plan to watch this movie together

last year but i guess i can just forget about it...

okay enough!

im down with stomach cramp

since last wed food poisoning i think

that auntie mee soup in school

didnt turn up for school

i miss girlfriends

whoever out there,thanks for cheering me up.

"If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."

2009-06-06T18:41:00.000+08:00

presenting......

Tobby!

isnt his cute & adorable

my cousin's britsh short hair!

2009-06-06T17:06:00.000+08:00

DANIA
My HOT-not GIRLFRIEND

WAWAN
MY SINGAPOREAN-INDON FRIEND

yesterday was a blast!
class outing at clarke q
we went to minds cafe as what our form teacher plan to go
the place was kinda cool,cosy
perfect place to relax
per entry is 5 bucks due to promotion
we can play whatever board games we like
had our lunch there
chicken platter!
so yummy, so big
but something turn me off
my chinese friend was like staring on my food
like wtf, i can swallow sia
he dont have money to eat
he asked me ''ehh, you dont eat the skin is it''
i know that he actually wants it
i just buat bodoh
tgok la kau aku makan
hahahaha

the best part, our teacher settled our bills
wooohoo!!!
i save around 11 bucks?

then me and dania went to dhoby ghaut just to hangout
no plans
only both of us
called wawan to tag along
we hit to arb street for sheesha
yeah, had fun and craps

around 10+
hit to grandlink
it was a last minute plan
upon wawan's request
just a short karaoke session did enjoy myself
reach home around 2 plus
hell yeah, i had a great day
didnt imagine that yesterday would turn out to be so much fun!

2009-06-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

you guys should try this
its damn exciting
timing: 6pm to 6am only
best of luck!
http://hotel626.com/

and should see this video (pranks gone wrong)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IltP3la77EU

plus this (girly man!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDKcevMFUCo

Happy watching!

2009-06-01T18:55:00.000+08:00

pheww,exams over

its a okay-okay paper la i can say,not easy nor hard

so ya, as i mentioned i aim a B3 for my malay

if i get more than that maybe i plan to re-take on october,i think so

so during the weekends

went to study at airport terminal 3

we have our dinner at popeye and yeah, still delicious

their mashed potato, superb nice; my favourite

so yeah, we did study okay

not chatting like we use to

wherelse on sunday

we went to ang mo kio library

quite pissed off, wait for gf for 1 freaking hour

but its okay, i still love you darling

we went back home early

bcos cher remind us to sleep aready,around 9?

upon reaching home

wash up and mummy siap-siap

going to nenek house

i dont know why on earth i followed them

maybe i miss my nenek and her cooking

the last time i met her was last year

during hari raya?long right?

reached there

i can smell her cooking

she cook my favourite dish

''asam pedas ikan pari nenek style''

yum-yum, power gedabak woi!

they kept sumbat-ing me with food

hahahaha

nevermind, skali sekale mahh

didnt stay long bcoz got to sit for exam the next day

didnt even revise that night

tired but cannot sleep

and this friend of mine sang me 2 songs upon my request

in the first place, i felt little bit sleepy

but then suddenly very very awake

thanks by the way friend

do appreciate it eventhough i finally get to bed around 2am

hell yeah, i was so sleepy the next day

so its kopi time!

so that i can stay awake during exam

hahaha

xpecially doing malay paper

so boring and tiring

so the kopi kinda help

me and my classmates went to subway after the paper

hungry like hell

''subway melt no veggy pls && mayo, honey mayo & chilli sauce pls''

''plus each for one''

still craving for subway

thanks girlfriends for introducing me this

''tak menyesal jahhh''

plans for holidays?

yes alot of plan!

school will be open for us! yes us!

woooohooo! borinnnnng!!

we only get 1 week off

that is during the 3rd week of june

got to work hard for O's bebeh

need to sacrfice time like wat cher said

english intensive will be starting soon i guess

arghh. one after another!

dont give up eyla! dont give up!

(im trying to motivate myself ni)

by the way, does anybody knows when transformers II will be out

please tell me! please please please

"You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her."

2009-05-30T13:21:00.000+08:00

you guys check this out

i was browsing through the net

i found this

cool shit

Mazda Negare Concept(2006)

Back seat

Driver's seat

2009-05-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

i got some jokes to share
found it online
was giggling to myself

Q. How do men exercise at the beach?
A. By sucking in their stomachs every time they see a bikini

Q. What does a man consider to be a seven-course meal?
A. A hot dog and a six-pack.

Q. What did God say after he created man?
A. "I can do better than this."

Q. Why is it good that there are female astronauts?
A. When the crew gets lost in space, at least women will ask for directions.

Nuns where repainting their chapel. They kept getting paint on their clothes
so they decided to remove them, but agreed not to let ANYONE in until they were
done and replaced their clothing. Then they heard some one knocking and one of
them yelled, "Whooo is it?"
‘‘the blind man!'' He yelled back.
They decided since he was blind it would be all right.
They opened the door and the man said, ''Nice boobs! Where do you want the
blinds?"

2009-05-29T14:28:00.000+08:00

sorry guys, been very buzy these days
MT intensive
prepare for the upcoming major exam
so dont really have the time to update
yeah, tons of homework were given
2 practice paper and 2 compo to be completed each day for 8 days straight
cool isn't it?
first time doing it was a burden
day by day, everything was going on smoothly
less than 4hrs of sleep each day
but its ok, we need to sacrifice in order to succeed, right Mr Rafi?
during this 8 sessions i've learned alot.
he really motivates us

a big change in me
i can write max 6 pages for my composition
unlike writing only 2-3 pages
so yeah, he really helps us
I wish i get at least B3 for MT

this monday, we will be sitting for O level MT paper
yes, im scared, nervous+++
i will be spending my weekends revising and improve more on my composition

FYI, I bumped into this two smart alex(s) in msn earlier on
get to know that one were in NTU and one is gratuating soon from poly; chemical engineering
his points for Olvl is 11
his malay was a C6, such a waste
their english were superb
unlike me, F9 for english
so i tell myself, if they could do it, why cant i?
hmmm........
so now, im sitting down thinking what is going to happen to me in the future
i need to buck up in order to get what i want right cher?

relationship wise?
i put it aside for the time being
not that i cant be bothered but this is the right think to do
100 percent concentration is needed
so girlfriends, no more suka-suka okay?
im only looking forward on watching transformers 2 with bf
he promise me this since last year
if he is to break his promises
i will beat this 'botak step seksi' up. hhahahahaha

so bf, mark my words!

chehhhh.

''i miss you....''

2009-05-19T20:48:00.000+08:00

its kinda cute
bby is going to buy for his younger brother a pokemon 'something'
dont know what to call it
accompanied him on the phone while they were otw buying that stuff
it was his younger brother birthday
reach there
younger brother change his mind.
he said ' ayan next year then buy '
i was like otp laughing out
the way he talk was so freaking cute.
so they went back home.
hahaha
funny la

so school just now was okay
results?
as usual
fail and guess what
i fail my art
shitt.
majority of 'em fail because of our pretry work
starting from tmr, we will be having MT intensive programme
Best pe, tak stress sangat

2009-05-17T18:56:00.000+08:00

getting from bad to worse
cannot get some sleep yesterday
tossing here and there
headache
next morning vomitted
feels a little bit okay after that
still fever
idong da mcm waterfall
suare rock

okay im gonna catch monster inc. on channel 5.
bye.

2009-05-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

Sick
down with fever
cough
sore throat
my body aching sia
sleep sleep sleep
okay gtg

2009-05-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

hey

here some pictures.

found it while daddy cleaning the cabinet

pictures when we were small and still cute!

HAHAHAHA.

Tourist from Japan(me & bro)

Mummy in pink sey. I started the new BOWL hairstyle.

In thailand(cousins) im in the middle posing. hahahaha

lets play with our next door neighbour!

me & brother (sweet kn) hahahah

Girl in blue.

mari nyanyi same2!

ngh bergantong ngn mataer la.

retro babies

yok, g swim!

mumy perm hair(at indon)

me( btw,im still using that bantal)

hahahaha, orbit!

nk race aper?

mum, me and the two couples.

us and daddy

show off my tweety bird n winnie the pooh

i want to be a model, mom

yeah, main slide2!

fatty bro on tiny bike.(at kampong, malacca)

papa carrying me.

i know im heavy mahh...

i like main gajah2!hahahaa

they always walk together(cousin & bro)

2009-05-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

pissed off
still not yet receive the money
the supplier did not respond to my mail
stupid supplier want to burn my money is it
i told her that i accidentely transfered to the wrong account
in the first place, i thought that both supplier was connected
so okay la, it was my mistake
im still waiting for her reply
if not, i must pay the second time to the actual supplier
haiyoo, so sian

ohya, i got to know from mummy when my cousin reached home,
he threw his bag away and hugged his mother tightly crying
Since he cannot make it on time for the death ceremony
its been a sad story you know
what if ure overseas and get to know that your father passed away
and your flight will only take off during the night
and by that time, your father was already buried
you dont even have the chance to see his face

God bless you

''baby, im missing you''

2009-05-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

14 may 2009.
my uncle passed away.
been suffering from stroke for 1mth+ in icu.
im worried for Faiz, my cousin.
He will be taking his Os.
But, I bet he can do well.
He's strong.
He's the type of person that always keep everything to himself.
Futhermore, his brother is in Australia with gf for holiday.
Freakout for sure to know what had happened back in Singapore.
Cant get in contact.
I feel so sad for them.
Worse, their mother was retrenched.
God bless them.

Reached home.
Found out, hamster died.
Wet furs. Head down.Fights.
Gosh. I just went inside my room ignoring that.
Brother will surely buried it soon.
Tmr, chem/physics exams.
Didnt study.
If mummy is to wake me up then i go.
If not, no.
Stress over weight issues.
Didnt jogg for 2days.
Guilty to hv Nasi Briyani just now.
But it was damn sedap=X
I should not eat that.
Meanwhile, im surfing the net.
Bump into this bulimia, insomnia, anorexia illness.
awful. like skeleton wearing clothes moving around.
ppl suffering; purging out, xcessive xcersize and stuff.
Im happy for myself that i realised it fast enough that its a wrong way to lose weight.
I also found out that bf; sister was actually suffering from this similar illness.
Eating disorder and stuff.
She needs to see the doctor quite often.
To get pills.
But sadly to hear that, she actually didnt consume it.
Can help about it.

"Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy."

2009-04-28T22:23:00.001+08:00

I feel like crying.I dont know why.
Like so stressful thinking of so many stuff.
urgghh!
Im like nothing now.
Shit, i dont know what to do.
I've not yet been revising my work at all.
Mid-year is approaching.
This thursday?
STRESS STRESS STRESS.

''I have no apologies, no regrets. I gave my very best efforts.... I've been hung in effigy. I've been spat upon. You just have to let those things bounce off. ''

2009-04-28T21:03:00.000+08:00

I try changing my blog template but then it didnt turn up the way i want it. So, i will be using this template at the moment.

Im still waiting for your reply.
Kept thinking about you all day long.
I feel so useless and helpless.
Im like a bird trapped in a cage.
I think that im not exist in your life anymore.
It was only once.
Im neglected.

I miss the old you, Ryan.
You've changed, alot.
How i wish i could turn back time.
Enjoying those happy times.

Waiting.

2009-04-27T20:17:00.000+08:00

Mummy is sick. And im very worried about her. She's been vomitting.
Home was like a library. No naggs.
Today was very different at home.
Get well soon mummy.
I love you so much.

im waiting

2009-04-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

Im back.

Lets continue story telling.

Im currently attached with this guy since Nov 08.

We have known each other for 3+ months.

My colleague knows him and told me about his background and stuff.

And ya, we get into relationship.

He was such a nice guy, caring, humble.

Always makes me laugh.

Spending his time talking to me hours and hours on the phone.

I even sacrifice my sleeping time in order just to chat with him.

I straight went to school.

I don't sleep.

I treasure.
But, it ended up with just a click.

He's serving his NS.

And he was already posted out last month.

The problem that im facing now is to define wheater he still wants this relationship or not because i dont feel the love,care & concern anymore.

I dont control him at all.

I allow him to do anything as long as im concern.

I even allow him to go to clubs and parties.

He's still a human being after all that needs to enjoy and not always being kept under our arms.
right ladies?
Im really upsad and getting tired thinking of this every single day and even before getting to bed.

I dont know if he got the same question in mind.

I guess, no.

He's been buzy all day long.

He dont have the time for me.

Even chatting on the phone, asking me 'Hows my day' 'Have I eaten or not' 'Have you missed me'.

Not at all.

We seldom contact each other though.

I try to understand his situation but day by day, our half-dead relationship getting from bad to worse.

He should at least know how to spend his time equally for me and his colleagues.

He will always hangout with them rather than myself during his weekends(in camp) and off days(posted out).

I even re-schedule my working days to only sundays so that on friday or saturday i can mit him up.

Even i was lectured by my manager for putting only a day to work.

Whenever my friends asked me out on either one of these days, i will tell them that im meeting up with my boyfriend.

But, it didnt turn up that way.

So, i just spend time at home watching tv, dvds or spend time with my family.

Thats, my weekend routine.

If im lucky, i get to mit him. as if he's someone famous.
Im not a doll that should be kept in the toybox okay!

So yesterday, i text him about whats happening now.

''Do you still wish to be in this relationship?I feel like you dont bother about this anymore''

''Yes, of course. Why? You have a new guy!?''

''Of course not.You're the one who kept dissappering. We seldom contact and all. And, i must always start the first move to get in contact with you.''

And, bestest part.

no reply

Fuhhh.By that time, I was so pissed off.
I dont even bother to text him back.
Its useless.
So now, im just waiting for time to tell it all.
I've been patience since the day he was called for NS.
We just met once since he was in camp till today.

Did I gave him to much room that he took advantage of me?
I just ignore when someone told me he was out with his ex?
Worse, that someone thought that his 'ex' was me in the first place and found out that ''that someone'' was actually talking to his girlfriend?

im just waiting,
time will answer my doubts soon.

im still missing you, darling.

The strongest of all warriors are these two — Time and Patience.

2009-04-27T18:12:00.000+08:00

Its been nearly 1 year+ since i last update you. Its was in a crictical stage and it didnt made its way to the hospital.And thats why i abandoned you.People kept asking me to update you but they didnt know what actually happened. Starting today onwards, i will not neglect you. My father just bought a new desktop.And im happy now.

Meanwhile, im cooling myself down after a short jog just now. As for normal, I was all red. When i was jogging, i saw this chinese boy around my age. He's kinda weird. He got this weird/psycotic face. His fingers were all crumbled up to his chest. He looked kinda autistic.So, I ran back home.HAHAH.

Im gonna take my shower & later I'll tell you LITTLE bit of my personal life.

Its been long i've been waiting for your answer